The last time i wrote i was in a funk about what happen between me and my girlfriend.
I found myself in deep thought about what i should do and how i should treat it. what i came to was quite simple. Shit happens and as man i need to be responsible for the stuff that does. I have taken complete ownership and responsiblity for the things i have let and caused to happen. On a much happier note i am engaged. To the same woman who i cheated on about 4 months ago. There alot things rushing through my mind even now. As of this moment i have already engaged in a counseling session with her. Some of things we touched on brought up some painful memories for both me and her. The one thing i think i need to work out the most right now is whether or not if i am ready. If i am still attached by way of soul tie to the girl i cheated on my fiance with. That reality scares me for sure. If it is true , i see this being a thing that is a cause or at least strong influence on the way i am responding to situations. There are many other questions that flow from that. Is my fiance safe? I am not ready because of that? Do i need to address that i depth before i choose to spend the rest of my life with her?
The one thing i have come to resolution is not run. The answer includes me working out this until all is stable. The answer for sure aint call it off, becuase for the simple fact that things can always cause apprehension, esp fear and i for one am done running because of fear.
