Choice is the Opportunity

I was watching Matrix Reloaded. Neo had just made it to the architect and they were going over his anomaliness. Explaining how it was combination of him creating it a more real world for the matrix made it so that people had to choose to believe what they were living. Consequently Neo discovers that choice is the issue that makes living so difficult as well as creates his position as the One. So then this leads me to my reflection of my life choice creates a dynamic in the human life that makes it so that life is what it is. If i choose to kill or even to engage in a premartial sexual lifestyle i reap consequences of choice i made. Rather me getting the death penalty, getting off Scott free to get beat up by the one i murdered. Our life is inexplicably tied to our wise and or poor choices. With Christ i have the opportunity when it comes to what i choose. I can choose my own selfish desires or choose satisfy the divine requirement to enjoy a wonderful life. But either way it spells surrender to a way.

Made of more

I am fed up with my consistent falling. The landing is painful. You would think that when you get into sexual issues with someone you love it would draw you near to each other. Its the opposite to draws away from each other. More lonely than i was before i made the decision to walk against the grain. Co habitation , premarital sex and extramarital sex are just teases of the real thing. No matter how much you want to think that all of these things will peel back the layers of connection that are thrown up. Nothing will ever match marriage. The act of God binding two people to become one person that serves him. Moves in unity and complete and utter obedience and awareness of all around them.

I imagine the person i am making us is someone who wont even move just look like he will.

I was made for more than this. I am not taking down. This is not it. I am not about this life. It time to kiss it goodbye.