I really do miss you

Hey Grandpa! I was at the house the other day I was thinking about you. I am sort of angry at the fact I could have you there with me at my wedding to Raven. It was just so much to take in at one moment. I am frustrated at where I am in my life not in a way as to say I am grateful though it could be read that way. I guess what I really want to say is I miss you a lot. It is still very surreal that you are gone from me. I kind of feel like Patrick when he said " I just want to hear him say whatevers one more time." Its just that I have always wanted very much to make sure that I pleased you. You were a man I looking up to when I was just going about my way. I don't even want to go on the rant about why you died. It will all end the fact that you are gone and I just have adjust. I guess ultimately I just want you to know that I look up to you and appreciate you for all you did for me. For reaching out and helping me see the simpler side of life. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to get know you. I really want to be sure that I live a life that honors the legacy you left for us. Not for us but for me.