Thinking.....It works to benefit.

Hear it is the Friday I'm sitting at home i deep thought about my life. I'm in a ponder mode as i would call it. I'm really evaluative of things that have taken place, the people i can come in contact with, the friends i have lost and overall the life i am leading. I have to say that one thing remained true. Times good or bad God has provided for me. I reflect on these things and I'm so thankful that he shown his grace and mercy on me to help me live this life. I understand his word deep because i do it. I understand cause and effect relationship and that the things that i purpose to happen will only happen if i do it or rather set it in motion.

Its so good to know that God has stayed with me through it all. Even though i don't have everything the way i wanted it Life is Good. God has been good to me.

I'm more and more excited about the things that go on in my life. Right now I'm involved with a young woman named Raven. She is wonderful, the best thing since sliced bread, the lobster tail on my seafood platter of love as it were. But as good as she is our relation is kind of on the rocks.

I would say the rocks of reality. I did a awful amount of blue skying with her that kept our heads in the sky rather than right where we need to be. This phrase"The rocks of reality" is only symbolic of what we fight on a regular basis. That is idealism vs realism. What makes idealism so provocative and so favorable to chase is that it is possible to achieve. Where realism makes its most profound argument is the process of achieving the ideal. Yea a doctorate is almost practically guarantees a good monetary life and you could have it at 28 if you start college right out of high school. Yea its possible but not realistic.

With that though i have found that what i have in my relationship with Raven is real. The base upon which can build a successful(possible) marriage in phase of being built. The goal in this phase or state rather is to get to place where everything and everyone is where they should be.
I am so enamored with making that happened until its ridiculous.

However what gives me encourage about what I'm going through with this relationship is to see that what God told was going to happen is happening. Its good to hear his words..always go deeper than just your auditory canals. The bible says" Man shall not live by bread alone but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of Him."

As far as work i have a couple of interviews on the horizon which i am happy about. I get to go back to work which i haven't been working for a year now. Or rather it will be in July.
But I'm so glad he answers prayer.