Love life...how do i start.
I have done the unthinkable. The impossible for me anyway.
I have betrayed the woman i care deeply for, for the a woman i only like.
Im so fed up with me right now. Its like i dont even know myself. I cant say i didnt see it coming because i did. i entertained this thought for a very long time and i realized, far too late, that should not have even introduced it. It sucks because i know right and i did wrong. I mean im damned strait to hell. Its hard to forgive yourself of something when its been done to you.
All i could say was i didnt want to. I dont know how it happened. Im sorry.
I hate this place i never want to be here again. i wish i could turn back time...ya know what im going to say.
I dont even want to turn back time i just want change..and be different for myself and for Her and most importantly God. Thats where i began..with all this. I began wanting to be free of sin of immorality. Thats where i struggled. Needless to say there is no more struggle..im so torn up about what transpired until im about ready to end it. The last thing on my mind is struggle. Whats on my plate now is change.
Its understanding that GOd's grace is for these times.
Learning how to forgive myself and give myself a break. I almost cant because i knew better.
I know better so i should do better.
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