Absence Makes the Heart Grow Numb

Its been a little over a week since I have spoke with my heavenly father and I can feel this drift. Its a miserable existence because I have not been that much aware of how far I am away from Him. Then again I have many things pulling on me on the regular. My wife is depending on me to lead her. My family is depending on me to run my race. My team at my job is expecting me to deliver on a great level. Ministry is calling out to me. Its just a bunch at one time and its draining to be very honest. It just so easy to lose sight of one thing...His Love. His love builds me up. His love gives me life. His love works through my weaknesses. His love overrides the apparent judgement of death hell and the grave. His love is forever. His love for me is forever. His love will forever be for me. His love covered all my sins. All my problems, frailties, my cares, my lack and meetness. How did I fall so far from my first love? The cares of this world... Legitimate but not vital. Necessary but not preeminent. Focal but not worthy of all focus. More is said in the holy lonesome echo of Gods silence than millions of words said by companions by your side for years to come. Even Robin William said " The worst feeling is not being alone, its being with a group of people who make you feel alone." More aptly said for my taste. Better is one day in courts. Better is one day that I can fully take in. Than thousand wonderful days where belly is full and sexual desire full met on call. The sense that comes over me at this moment is that there is more for me in his presence. That I am on the verge of being where I need to be to do what I am called to do in full flow without compromise. The time for prayer is nigh... #findtheplace #holdtheground #praythespace #lifttheName